today i didn't go school......

dont know why today i no mood to go school....
maybe i feel no mood to go school and no mood to meet all of them.....
i think not their problem but i oso don know this is who de problem....
my mood become bad a few day liao,but i don know why my mood will become bad.....
maybe i reali care all of them......
i scare when i join them then they will stop their talking....
so i never go join them .....if they see me come then reali stop their talking then i will more sad than i didn't go join them......
is it i think too much?????i reali hope is i think too much.....
but if not le......what i wan to do????i don know.....i reali dont know.....
still playing wif them??or don wan play wif them?
juz leave alone?
who can teach me????
i don know wan say wat to them......
i don know they reali wan to 'boikot' me ah????
wat i do dy let them become like tis....
is it i reali too bad then make them hate me?is it?
tomolo wan go school ma?
i don know le....
i scare when i meet them then i will cry again like yesterday.....
i scare they will see me cry....i don wan let them see me cry.....don wan ,reali don wan....