进入我最真的世界。。。。。

有可能会罗哩罗嗦或者超级无敌闷。。。。

但是这却是最真的我自己。。。

不会有任何的谎言与欺骗。。。。

只会有最真的我与最真的心。。。

2009年7月29日星期三

still alone....

same wif wat i meet monday....
same no mood for today....
juz alone to do homework wif hear mp3,
juz alone to go toilet,
juz alone to do nothing.....
today got ppl tell me don think too much....
think too much juz will make u become no mood.....
but is it true?
i don know.....
i juz noe i no mood...
maybe is me think too much lol.....
or my 6 sense very very well.....
can sense wat they think of me.....
actually i got try to talk wif them but when finish the topic,
i no topic to continue again......
then alone again lol....wat i can do?who can tell me?plz teach me......

2009年7月28日星期二

today i didn't go school......

dont know why today i no mood to go school....
maybe i feel no mood to go school and no mood to meet all of them.....
i think not their problem but i oso don know this is who de problem....
my mood become bad a few day liao,but i don know why my mood will become bad.....
maybe i reali care all of them......
i scare when i join them then they will stop their talking....
so i never go join them .....if they see me come then reali stop their talking then i will more sad than i didn't go join them......
is it i think too much?????i reali hope is i think too much.....
but if not le......what i wan to do????i don know.....i reali dont know.....
still playing wif them??or don wan play wif them?
juz leave alone?
who can teach me????
i don know wan say wat to them......
i don know they reali wan to 'boikot' me ah????
wat i do dy let them become like tis....
is it i reali too bad then make them hate me?is it?
tomolo wan go school ma?
i don know le....
i scare when i meet them then i will cry again like yesterday.....
i scare they will see me cry....i don wan let them see me cry.....don wan ,reali don wan....

2009年7月24日星期五

自己对自己说的话....

为什么我还要那么执着呢?我很累,我真的很累....为什么我要那么在乎呢?为什么还要那么在意呢?最后伤的不就还是自己吗?我不是已经想好了不要再执着了吗?到最后还是伤害到自己那又何苦呢?我这样最有谁会知道,又有谁会了解,又有谁会帮你呢,不是只能自己靠自己吗?不要再执着了啦!!!!一个人生活不是很好吗?没有人会烦,没有人吵,只是没有人陪聊天而已嘛,又有什么了不起的?小学的时候不也是这样吗?一个人下课,一个人上学,一个人活在自己的世界里,没有人关心,没有人介意,又不怕得罪人那不是很好吗?你不想回到那以前的自己吗?回到那原来的自己,那个最像自己的自己,那不是很好吗?忠于自己啊,不是很好吗?你还有什么好想的?自己就是自己,没有人可以影响到你,没有人可以左右到你的思想,那你就没有什么好牵挂的啦!!!知道了吗?是时候把自己关闭了吧?没有丝毫牵挂,就这样吧!!!!!!!